Saturday Rolls Around.

Happy Saturday to all my friends. I would like to start by saying thank you once more to all my friends who made my "first birthday" as Candice so special. I love you all! It is a holiday weekend and I am spending a little more time in girl mode. It feels so good to let my girl out! I am still struggling with how to define my future path given the realities of my current situation. I am starting to feel that I need to talk to someone in a professional manner. In some respects my ability to express Candice is starting to reach its practical limits and I want more. I am just not sure how to proceed, or even if I am really able to at this point. I have been out for just under a year to closer friends and really out in a very public sense for just under 8 months. This all is all truly so new to me that I could use some guidance. The one thing I can say is that I in no way ever intend to go back in to that closet or deny who I am. Heck being a girl rocks! wearing this beats cargo pants and a ratty t shirt any day!

So it has been a little while since my birthday post and I am sorry for the delay. The Tuesday following my birthday celebration I  was out with the girls for our regular dinner. This time we went to a nice bistro near the university in our town. This was the same place my girlfriend and I had dinner after the ballet a few weeks ago. It was nice because the students have all gone home for the summer and the establishment was not packed as usual.

One of the girls snapped a photo of myself and a girlfriend next to me for her Facebook page. The funny this was that on the window directly behind where my friend was sitting is a large logo. In the photo it looks like she is wearing a giant bonnet!

I was sitting in her place. It would look like "Little Tranny on the Prairie"... okay it sounds funny in my head. The food was great and I can not wait to go back.

This past Tuesday was my girlfriends birthday dinner. It was so nice to spend time with her and make some new friends. She has been a wonderful supporter and I was so happy that I could help celebrate her special day as Candice. Happy Birthday Beautiful I love you!

The next night (Wednesday) I wad dinner with a few other girlfriends mostly because a few of the girls wanted to go out and can not make the regular Tuesday night outings. And one girlfriends wanted to give me a belated birthday wish because she had to miss my birthday dinner. She is so sweet.

Spending time with the girls is so much fun. Next Tuesday we are going to a great Mexican place for dinner. Yummy! Well that's it for now kids. So because it has been a while since the last  post you get a couple of butt shots! Enjoy!

XXOO
Candi

49th Post For My 49th Birthday

Hello my friends! I hope all is well with each of you. This Tuesday I turned 49! and it is my 49th post on this blog, nice little coincidence I would say. I started this week with a outing Sunday afternoon attending a ballet production of Cinderella with a wonderful girlfriend. The show was amazing, and I loved being there as Candice. When my girlfriend called and asked me if I would like to go I immediately sad yes! When I hung up with her I thought what the hell do I wear to a daytime ballet ? So I consulted the all knowing "Google" and got some good ideas. What I picked out is the outfit in the photos above and below... what do you think?

I posted these photos on Facebook and everyone who commented loved the outfit. After the show we had a early dinner near the shows venue and chatted our meal away. On a side note, while at dinner my girlfriend discovered her cell phone was missing. Luck would have it that her boyfriend was able to download a GPS tracker on the missing phone and follow it to a home on the other side of town! She recovered the phone, apparently a young girl picked it up from where it was dropped. How cool is that! The whole day was so great I can not wait for my next theater outing!

Moving on to Tuesday night and my birthday celebration!  I invited a bunch of my girlfriends (GG's) to help me mark my first birthday openly as Candice. What a amazing night. around 30 women joined me on this special day!

As a added treat I stopped at a M.A.C. Cosmetics store near the restaurant where we were having our dinner and had my make up done. What a treat that was! I went with one of my close friends so she could watch what the makeup artist was doing. I had her turn me around so I could not see what was going on. I wanted to be surprised. I was! I turned around and took one look at myself and said out loud... "I am a whore! I love it!"  Okay, I did not look like a whore. I loved the look though, She used false eyelashes and I have never used them before. What a difference! I think I am now addicted to them! I must add that I will be going back to the M.A.C store soon for privet makeup lesions, its worth it!

I love being out of that damn closet! being able to celebrate my birthday as a woman was amazing! My girlfriends are so loving and supportive, I could not ask for a greater gift then that! Of course I did get wonderful birthday gifts too!  Everything from wine to lingerie to a hand made scarf to a framed collection of photos from past girls nights out!

I want to thank all my dear Friends who took the time to be with me on my "first birthday"! You all made me feel special and loved. I have never been happier than I am now and I owe it to the friends who have stuck by me, I love you all!

Time for the butt shot... this time you get two! Heck its my birthday week! :-)

Have a great day everyone!

XXOO
Candi

Events...

Hi friends! I have so much to tell you all about. First, this Sunday I am going with a girlfriend to the ballet. I love the arts and have been wanting to start attending theater events as Candice for a long time now. This is a wonderful opportunity and I am so thankful to my friend for thinking of me. Also this week is a big one for this girl. This coming Tuesday is my birthday (yea me!). What makes it special is that it is the first birthday I am openly celebrating as Candice! I am having a dinner and cocktails (love that word) at a very nice restaurant with about 30 girlfriends (at last count). All of them "GG's" (Genetic Girls). You know I will be blogging and posting photos from both events! The fun part is trying to figure out what to wear. I guess I am becoming more and more of a woman! I will be taking a few day off from work early this week as part of my birthday plans (this is where it pays to be your own boss) so I can Spend Sunday through Wednesday completely in girl mode. I have not been able to spend that much consecutive time as Candice since this past New Years Weekend. I can't wait!

  

So this past Tuesday was a bust for our regular girls night out. Work issues prevented me form going out in girl mode (that sucked). But I really can not complain too much. In the last 6 months work has only messed up my plans twice. Not bad for 35-40 events as Candice over that time. Now both times I was very depressed that I did not get my girl time out. Being a woman and being out has become such a part of  my normal life, that I hate when anything interferes with my girl time. On the bright side, Candice truly does have a life of her own. I love when girlfriends invite me as female to events, dinners, outings etc... I cherish every second of that time.

So going back to the previous Tuesday night dinner with the girls... We went to a swanky little pizza place and had a great dinner. The food was amazing. The salad I had was so good I ordered one to go so I could have one for lunch the nest day. We will definitely be back there soon (yum). I love the conversations we get int, work (ugh), relationships (much like work at times), sex (yes please) gossip (fun) etc... One of the topics we talked about was the friend I lost over coming out as Candice. I am still hoping the loss is temporary. I have reached out about half a dozen times by various methods,  phone, text, email. Facebook... No response. It is sad because we were so close and this change in attitude has only been resent. She has known about this side of me for a very long time. To lose only one friend out of over 100 who know is really good statistically.  

Sunday night I went to a friends home for dinner. Two other girlfriends were visiting from out of town and wanted to get together. I truly adore these women and wish they did not live so far away! I had  great conversation with one of the girls. She gave me some amazing feedback about this blog and her perspective on gender and sexuality. I wish I could have continued out talk. I had to leave but was planning to return shortly. Unfortunately it was late and I hit my wall and had to call it a night. I will drop her a email this week. I love open and honest discourse and criticism pro or con. Keeping a open mind and being respectful is part of what makes a well rounded and well adjusted person.

On a lighter note (as if I am posting a blog about foreign policy) My girlfriend Kelly and I went to a pilates  class... I have one thing to say... OUCH. Now I went in guy mode only because even I would find it disturbing to see me in a sports bra and capri yoga pants! Now a couple of things happened during the class. First, it was a "core" workout class and I found out I have no "core" . I did look on Amazon when I got home and apparently you simply can not buy a "core" online. Well what good is all this damn e-commerce  anyway if you can't get what you want !?!  From what I now understand I actually must "work" on my core through exercise... Sigh... The second thing that happened is that I pulled a muscle in my frigging armpit! WTF! I have no idea how, but it is funny. So Saturday Kelly and I will be trying a yoga class at the same place. And yes it is a Groupon deal and Kelly is the Queen of the Groupon! I will let you know how it goes when I post after my birthday festivities.

Yup, another butt shot. Have a good week everyone, and if you are planning on attending a pilates class watch out for the risk of "pit sprain" See you all next time!

XXOO 

Candi.