Back On Track...

Hello my friends!

Well it has been a little while between postings. I must apologize for not making my regular weekly post.In fact several of my friends were asking me why I had not put anything up yet. Last week I had absolutely no street time as Candice (very sad). Work demands were had been crazy and even my regular Tuesday night outing was a bust (very, very sad). I was able to be Candice at home but it really is so more much fun and affirming to be "out and about" (insert Canadian accent here) in the real world, that being home in girl mode is kind of being all dressed up with nowhere to go. Actually it is being all dressed up with nowhere to go! Ever since outing myself being in the real world as Candice has become the most important factor in the growth of my feminine self. Not having that opportunity because of external factors (i.e. work) is depressing. But I am back on track now and this past Tuesday night my girlfriends and I had a wonderful dinner and a fun evening out.

Next Tuesday we are going out to a swanky pizza place (yum) and the following Sunday we are going to have a gathering to welcome two new and very special friends visiting from out of town. I can not wait, I love my girlfriends!

On a sad note, I may have lost a good friend because of coming out as Candice. The most disappointing part of it all is that the friend in question had known about my feminine side long before I really started putting it out there. In the beginning the friend was very supportive and loving. The only thing I can attribute this friends change of heart with is that it was much easier to be supportive when it was a closeted matter and not in the public view. I did expect a some rate of attrition as to losing some friends over my coming out. And I was and am still prepared to accept the potential losses over this issue. The saddest point to this loss is that this friend was very close and was the last person I would have expected to lose as a friend. I only hope they have a change of heart in time. I guess it all can't be lolly pops, sunshine and unicorns (damn it)!

Well I need to get to work in boy land... ugh... I really need to work on changing that. I thank you for reading this blog and for my friends for supporting me. I love you all!

Until next time kids, (and sorry I just love photos of my butt) may your heels be high, your skirts short (not too short after all you are a lady) and your makeup flawless!

XXOO
Candi

Time Just Passes By...

This past Tuesday was of course my regular night out with the girls. I was a wonderful evening with good friends. Two new girls joined us for dinner. It is funny calling the girls "new friends" I have known these women for years but only as my male self.. So even though I am friends with them and have know them a log time, but Candice is new to them. It is truly exciting to create new connections with old friends as a woman. As a interesting note to making new connections with friends, on my Facebook page there are now 68 (at last count) people who know me openly as Candice  from my male self's friends. Those are direct connections. Add in spouses, significant others and close friends, I estimate well over 100 people from my male world now know of Candice. A year ago if you told me that many people would know my "secret" I would not had thought it possible. What a gift it is to be this free. Life is truly good to this girl and I am very thankful for all my blessings.

On Sunday I was out to dinner with  some girlfriends two of them are "new old friends" from my male life. (photo below) Both of them found my female profile on Facebook and sent me friend requests before I had a chance to get to them myself. I find it very exciting and cool when my friends "discover" Candice. on their own!

I am really liking my Sunday dinners as Candice. its a great way top off the day I get to spend entirely in girl mode. I did have the pleasure of spending most of Saturday in Candi-Land. I decided not to work (oh the benefits of working for yourself), so I had a massage in the early afternoon then spent the day getting my girl on. It was such a relaxing day!

I am truly working on a way to be Candice all the time. I used to think that being transgendered was a curse. I wanted to be a normal "guy" I fought my compulsions and by doing so caused myself a lot of anguish. But now I realize it is a gift to be transgendered. To see life from both sides of the fence (if you go back and read my 44th post it will enplane my history). Plus wearing heels makes it easier to see over the gender fence!

Fast forwarding to tonight's girls night out (yup, its Tuesday again). Three more "new" girlfriends joined us, along with my buddy. He was out with us a few weeks ago for girls night out and had a good time. I really think he just likes being around my girlfriends! I really can not blame him, for that, my girlfriends are awesome! Plus allowing him to go was the only way to make him stop all his whining! He also understands that it a "girls night out"... not a "girls and one guy night out".

I am thinking of setting up group or just post a recurring girls night out event on Facebook to make it easy for the girls to R.S.V.P. and make suggestions for new venues.I will look into it and see if it is something to do. Well I am off to bed kids. Thanks for reading this blog I am astonished that it has revived almost 3400 hits. Thanks to all my readers! Love ya!

XXOO, Candi